That might be worse, being trapped between the door and the wall like that - cornered and yet never able to escape out into the visible exit. She hugs herself as they walk, looking a little young.]
Sometimes, I feel like I'm losing my mind. [She knows that, back where she comes from, there have been whispers about her stability. Even Herta finds her new behaviors weird, even though she feels freer than she ever has in her entire life.] Everything is so strange, and I feel like I'm alone up against a force I've never met.
[Being forced into interactions has been taxing, and people have treated her in a way that "Princess" Grace, aloof and cold and uninterested in others, had never experienced. It's almost better that they surely loathe her now.]
Anyway, Blade's definitely got some problems - these that sometimes do eat at him by the virtue of their inconsistent nature. But, it is something to consider nonetheless. ]
...Like that.
I've known this force for centuries. It's a part of me.
[ To be marastruck for so long means that he has 'met' it consistently. In a way, it's his own mind, but it also simultaneously feels like something different. As if he changes in some way when he's under its influence. Something...different from the others, but he can't explain it. It's simply maddening. ]
But, some part of it feels unknown. Maybe the fact that I can return to myself at all. That it seems like I have control, when I don't.
Much like our situation, isn't it? We have control over our daily lives to a point...but other things, we don't.
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That might be worse, being trapped between the door and the wall like that - cornered and yet never able to escape out into the visible exit. She hugs herself as they walk, looking a little young.]
Sometimes, I feel like I'm losing my mind. [She knows that, back where she comes from, there have been whispers about her stability. Even Herta finds her new behaviors weird, even though she feels freer than she ever has in her entire life.] Everything is so strange, and I feel like I'm alone up against a force I've never met.
[Being forced into interactions has been taxing, and people have treated her in a way that "Princess" Grace, aloof and cold and uninterested in others, had never experienced. It's almost better that they surely loathe her now.]
Is that how it is for you?
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Anyway, Blade's definitely got some problems - these that sometimes do eat at him by the virtue of their inconsistent nature. But, it is something to consider nonetheless. ]
...Like that.
I've known this force for centuries. It's a part of me.
[ To be marastruck for so long means that he has 'met' it consistently. In a way, it's his own mind, but it also simultaneously feels like something different. As if he changes in some way when he's under its influence. Something...different from the others, but he can't explain it. It's simply maddening. ]
But, some part of it feels unknown. Maybe the fact that I can return to myself at all. That it seems like I have control, when I don't.
Much like our situation, isn't it? We have control over our daily lives to a point...but other things, we don't.